03-03-2024, 01:55 PM
Everything was starting to feel normal. It was beginning to feel likethe vast majority of his existence prior to when Ethel walked into it. The wilds of the lands he had visited and even those that he had called home had always felt more welcoming than to stand at the egress of his own front door. ' 'Home' had become something of ajail, a cage of memories so pleasant it was torture, a constant remainder of his failings, a never ending deluge of consequences from his actions. He couldn't wait to bring Yggdra here, the place she was meant to be raised once the war was over and he and his wife were permitted to return to their normal lives. Their daughter would have played with the other children in Sanctuary, she would have spent idle days dancing and spinning with her mother in her dance studio, mimicking the fluent motions she instructed with a cIumbsy charm only befitting a child's intent.
But that wouldn't come true.
And that would only ever be get another 'what if'.
He'd avoided town for the most part, staying in the wilds for both the safety of those who lived there from questioning about his whereabouts. Just as much as it wasfor his own sake. The haunting notions of what could have, and should have, been were unpleasant ones to say the least. Today, however, he had chosen to venture in, unable to keep goods from those of less fortune. He knew manyof those who once prowled the forest paths in search of game were yet to return from the capitol, and as such, their families were to make due with what meager supplies they were left with or that a soldier's earnings could afford. With the looming threat of war, however, trips for trades were also quite rare as well.
So fresh cuts of red meat lingered in a bag, wrapped in skins and parchment alike, kept cool for the trip by the chilling waters of the river wild. Likewise, salted pelts clung to his shoulders, necessities provided for the swiftly approaching mountain winters. It wouldn't be long now before the first flakes of snow made their appearances at this elevation. The butcher was his first visit, the once familiar and bright features of the woman left bereft of her former vitality, the wrinkles of her brow now more pronounced than before. Despite the cover of his helm, recognition lit in her dark umber eyes, and accented her vocals as she spoke, "Been awhile. Most obliged, sir."